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flatbearzi was planning on going out tomorrow, but now it seems i have.. entered the monthly cycle. maybe. hasnt come yet, but it will and it will ruin my plans with immense pain. ill have to see. i wanted to buy new tops and also a new deodorant. if possible, i also want to buy better shampoo and conditioner.. ive been so sad lately, my hair has been flat for a while and i wanna bring back its volume. then i realized this morning that throwing it up in a towel seems to help.. though i also had someone else wash my hair. so.. ill have to try that again by myself. i still want volumizing stuff though.
i really like selfcare. everyone likes the feeling of being fresh, but i especially like it because i never feel that way. i wish i had more motivation to do more bigger spa-like rituals. id try today.. but i cant wash my face, i ran out of moisturizer too!!! i have so many things to buy. i used to have really bad skin, and it made me feel horrible because i felt very ugly. i thought after my skin cleared up id be perfectly fine, but i realize i will always have problems. things ive wanted to do: keep up my skincare routine, selfcare in general (hard), cleaning my room consistently, going outside and maybe exercising, and drinking water. i made a notion page for this months ago but literally forgot it existed because of my horrible short term memory. eh...... this is too hard. i even wrote down to do tarot again and try pendulum stuff and i havent gotten to it..
its crazy how you can "do nothing" according to everyone else and still feel so busy.
i really like selfcare. everyone likes the feeling of being fresh, but i especially like it because i never feel that way. i wish i had more motivation to do more bigger spa-like rituals. id try today.. but i cant wash my face, i ran out of moisturizer too!!! i have so many things to buy. i used to have really bad skin, and it made me feel horrible because i felt very ugly. i thought after my skin cleared up id be perfectly fine, but i realize i will always have problems. things ive wanted to do: keep up my skincare routine, selfcare in general (hard), cleaning my room consistently, going outside and maybe exercising, and drinking water. i made a notion page for this months ago but literally forgot it existed because of my horrible short term memory. eh...... this is too hard. i even wrote down to do tarot again and try pendulum stuff and i havent gotten to it..
its crazy how you can "do nothing" according to everyone else and still feel so busy.
